We'll have to thank my professional photographer hubby for missing the bump in this shot ;) ...and with a toddler, another pic was NOT going to happen!
These updates will be a week in review. I turned 13 weeks pregnant this weekend, so today I'll be discussing how my 12th week went, make sense?!
So far this pregnancy has been relatively easy (I hope I'm not jinxing myself by saying that, but I'm pretty confident things will continue on this path as we're heading into the 2nd trimester!).
Baby: Size of a plum, weighing in at half an ounce, and just over 2 inches long. Reflexes are developing, most critical systems are formed, and baby can open and close fingers and curl toes too.
Mama: They say my hormones have started to calm down a bit, but my husband might have a differing opinion on that one. There is NO hiding this belly anymore! My body is VERY aware of what is going on, has been down this road before, so out popped the belly.
Physical Health: I'll be honest, I did not get a single workout in this week and I have no good excuse except to say I just didn't make it a priority. Although, we did go to the zoo one morning where I pulled two toddlers up and down the hills. We also did our weekly Parent-Tot Gymnastics class which is 45 min of me huffing and puffing, chasing her around, helping her tumble, balance, hold her on the rings and bars, and thankfully rest a bit during the last 5 min of open play. She ABSOLUTELY LOVES gymnastics and I'm so happy we are able to provide her with this activity.
Mental/Emotional Health: I've been really struggling with this department, to the point where I cry when ever I start to think about the future. We have an OBGYN appointment on Wednesday where I plan on discussing things more in depth with my provider, as my gut says this isn't exactly a healthy response to being pregnant.
To put it simply, I'm scared that all the hard/tough/bad stuff is going to happen again, and it will only be more difficult this time around as I'll have a little toddler to look after at the same time. I'm not really looking for advice or encouragement on the subject at this point. It's just some really tough emotional things I have to work through to get to a point of peace, acceptance, and gratitude.
I do know that I have come a REALLY long way from the person I was when I was suffering through PPD with Charlotte. I have an absolutely amazing support system, I'm stronger on so many levels, and have much more resources and tools to help me get through the tough stuff this time around. I'm able to self evaluate and know that I need extra support right now and that it's imperative I ask for that help and not suffer through this silently thinking I'm going through it alone or that I'm not normal and no one will understand.
My goal with my blog this time around is to not be so superficial with my journey. But talk about the tough, scary stuff; celebrate my successes proudly; show gratitude for where I am in my journey; and possibly help someone else out there going through the same thing know they aren't along.
Thank you for taking the time to read my story, I appreciate the support and encouragement you bring to me and can't wait to see what unfolds. Happy weekend!
